Im back

yah yah..
been neglecting my blog space...
im too lazy to update actually...

life was ok - ok situation...
i was sick..twice rush up to Alexandra Hosp...
test for pregnancy was twice negatives...
so at times i was wondering if the negative results was a blessing or dissapointment...
but i shall left it to FATE...

d tots of tendering has been playing in my mind...

but loads of commitment made me reluctantly stay...

firstly, its not family commitmet but mine - my personal commitments..
i have 3 hps bills to pay....my mom,mine n my nephew....wic a mth can couped up to $250....
*gulps*
i have my essentials need to buy...
i cant depends fully on my Hub...thou he can financially support me n lil babe,even im not working...

i love having d extra $$$ dat i earn n spend it on my stuffs n lil babe...
her clothes n shoes...i dont have to ask hub to buy all these thou he does gave me $$ for our own expenses...

and 2nd-ly
worst still d Co im working now sucks BIG TIME!!!!sucks environment!sucks paperwork!sucks ppl!sucks working scope with is so FAR DIFF wif wat i used to do....SUCKS DEADLINE...every week ade date line!!!!!keje ape sak nie...

and 3rd-ly...
i always blame myself for being TOO PAMPERED since young n not enuf being independent!!!!
y am i always getting all d attention n needs whenever i throw tantrums...even my hub does it too....
i simply hate my self!!!!hate d life dat i used to lead...
hate it!!!!